Day 14...two weeks out...

As I sit here and type this I can in no way get my mind wrapped around what I am about to do...not because it's a bad thing...but because I can't believe this happened to me the way it did...

They always say that love happens on you when you least expect it or aren't looking for it...Lord knows I wasn't looking for it cuz I was having way too much fun being me...

Didn't get anything done today that I said I was...stayed in bed most of the day. Managed to get up and go out to get the money for my coordinator to make my cake. Then we went to the wedding of my friend...and learned exactly what not to do for our own wedding.

The wedding itself was beautiful even though they started 30 minutes late. It was short though...I wonder if our wedding will be that short?

We headed to the reception which was at a banquet hall attached to a Ramada Inn...the room was nice enough although small and it was cold as a witches tit in there...brrrr...thing number one not to do - freeze guests.

The wedding party took two hours to get there and that was kind of annoying...thing number two not to do...leave guests waiting too long.

Dinner took way too long to be served and by the time we left almost 4 hours later they were just getting to the first dance...wtf??? Thank God for a coordinator that will keep things moving...

Tomorrow is back to business...pick up dress, get decorations and other stuff...

Now it's off to bed...

Day 15...

Not much to report today...I had a long late night last night...stayed up way too late trying to catch up with my thoughts...didn't make it.

Took a mental health day from work today and laid in bed for the majority of the day.

I did manage to get to the store yesterday for the cake cutter, bubbles and jewelry to wear with my gown.

Got up this evening and went with my fiance, son and stepson so they could be fitted for their tuxes. Tomorrow is the last day for the guys to be fitted without paying a late fee.

While at dinner we got a call from one of the groomsmen that they just moved and he's having a hard time coming up with the money...to which I replied Oh well...we aren't paying for it so either one of the girls will have to walk down alone or two will walk with one guy...it's too late to make any changes at this point...

So now here I sit going back over my day while my love is sleeping next to me...he always looks so peaceful when he's sleeping...lol

Tomorrow will be a busy day...going to look for decorations and stuff to make the throw away bouquet with my dad's girlfriend...Jasmyn is off to Fright Fest with her friends - thank God for that...lol. I also have to pick her dress up tomorrow...

And now here we are - in two hours we will officially be two weeks out...the thought of it makes me feel so many emotions at one time it's almost unbelievable. And I know it's right because I still look at the man and get weak in the knees...sigh...

Speaking of...I had a long talk with my sister yesterday about the madness that's been going on between myself and two of my fiance's cousins...she said we should have a good old fashioned sit down with them. So - now that I have backup...that's exactly what we are going to do...because the ignorance and foolishness won't stop until I lay down the law...so it's going DOWN on Saturday morning...then I am going to politely take my ass to my facial appointment and begin my "get pretty" week for the biggest day in my 40 years of existence!

Until tomorrow...

Day 16...

So here I am at day sixteen...and it's actually been a pretty good day today...

The guest list is final and closed. Meeting with the caterer next week to finalize the menu, decorations and room set up. Then seating can begin...sigh...

Took Jasmyn for the final fitting on her dress...it's fabulous. We'll pick that up on Friday. Went to Walmart to get the cake cutter and decorations and look at silk flowers for the throw away bouquet but the power was out...good thing too because I forgot to message the Pastor to find out how many pews are in the church...duh!!!

So maybe I'll hit Walmart up tonight...

I got the honeymoon all booked and paid for today - yay!!! Vegas look out - cuz the Fritzgeralds are coming through...can't wait for that.

After all we've been through a nice five day four night get away will do us good!!!

I worked on finishing the program today as well.

I don't know how I feel right now...my mind is moving a million miles an hour, but the time seems to be going in fast forward and pause at the same time - is that possible??

It feels exactly like it did when I was waiting for Hans to come home from Afghanistan...like the time was moving so fast but I just couldn't feel it...I just want the week of the 8th to get here...like yesterday. It will be crunch time then and that's how I operate best.

I do have an appointment at Mario Tricoci for a facial next Saturday...need to get that done...

And I guess that's it for the countdown today...looking forward to the weekend to just try not to think...lol

Day 17...and so the countdown begins here...

A good friend of mine told me that I should start this blog over the next 17 days to vent and release and write about my experiences up until the day of my wedding...

Although I was married before for 16 years, I didn't have a fairytale wedding...it was more like a - just to get it done type wedding. So this is big for me. I've waited nearly 40 years for a day like November 13, 2010.

And to be having this day with my soulmate and the absolute love of my life is the most spectacular feeling in the world!!!

However, the last few weeks have been especially trying for me. As a woman and as a soon to be wife. I've been disrespected by relatives (not mine of course), talked to any kind of way and at one moment I was in fear that this wedding may not even happen...

But love prevails and here I am...

So we're 17 days away and I finally got around to finalizing the budget for what's left to pay...whew...but it's not as bad as i thought...we'll still actually have money to spend in Vegas...lol.

Also today my boss did something really nice for me...he booked us a hotel room near the airport the night of the wedding...how sweet!!!

He used his Marriott points and they won't let him put the reservation into anyone else's name, so he's even going to check into the hotel on his way to the wedding and bring us the key! God I love my job and my co-workers!

We even had the nerve to get 2 more RSVPs today...really? Like the cutoff was on the 18th!!! WTF???

So now - all RSVPs have been cut off...the count goes in next week when we meet with the caterer to finalize the details of the reception and to pay...ouch...

But everyday that goes by brings me closer to my dream of the last year and a half of finally becoming Mrs. Hansel Fritzgerald...

Until tomorrow...or if anything else happens...TTFN